like being underwater

almost like drowning, but not quite. it's a good feeling. this is how i've been all day since i had a talk this morning with a person very important to me. was crying during most of the call and so i'm not sure whether he said what he said, or if i'd just imagined it. it sounded like there was a promise in there somewhere.

so at the risk of saying something tacky... right now there's something like the beginnings of a smile--not sure where exactly--but it's in here somewhere. maybe at the corner of my mouth or in that place a little below my heart. it's lodged in here somewhere so that there seemed times today that i had to remind myself to breathe.